Doing the work...part one

Because I feel like there is a HUGE behavioral, emotional component to my overeating, I know that along the way, I have to do some work, or eventually, I will always go back to my old patterns.  The Beck Diet Solution by Judith Beck was recommended to me several years ago by a friend.  In college, we both carried a few extra pounds (no where near what I carry now).  She went on to lose weight, become an avid runner, keep her weight off.  I went on several diets, but always yo-yo'd back up with my weight.  She used the Beck Diet Solution.  This book is a series of assignments that you work through in order to change old behaviors and eating patterns.  The first step is creating  a list of reasons I want to lose weight.  For me personally, the biggest piece is that I want to feel better.  I always feel tired and run down, sore, fatigued.  Now, let's be honest, I'm carrying another person around on me which is going to leave me tired and worn out.  So, here's my list...subject to change depending upon what life throws my way.

1.  I'll feel better
2.  I'll be a more active mom.
3.  I'll look better.
4.  I'll be able to shop in "regular" stores for "regular" clothes (hello, why do they think that just because you are fat, you want to look like a 90 year old, without any fashion sense)
5. I'll be more attractive to my husband.  (who loves me anyway)
6.  I'll be more comfortable undressing in front of my husband.
7.  I won't feel so self conscious. (You can't imagine the things I don't do because of my weight)
8.  I'll be in better health.
9.  I'll be a more effective OT.  (Telling my patients, do as I say, don't do as I do)
10.  I'll live longer.  I don't want to leave my husband and children too soon because of bad decisions.
11.  I'll be able to exercise without discomfort or embaressment.
12.  I'll like myself more.
13.  I'll have more confidence.
14.  I'll increase my self esteem.
15.  I won't worry about what I eat in front of other people.
16.  I won't have anyone bugging me about my weight.
17.  My children will have a better role model for healthy living.
18.  I will feel like being more active.

So there's my starting list.  I'll likely add to it from time to time.  What's your reason for wanting to lose weight?  There's no wrong answer.  It's all about you and your priorities.