Falling off the wagon and going boom!

So, I hurt my back this weekend.  Nothing major, I didn't even go to the doctor.  I just overdid it working outside on Saturday, didn't listen to my body on Sunday and did some more.  By Sunday afternoon, my back was in aching spasms.  I took some ibuprofen and aleve, applied heat and tried to rest.  It's feeling better today, still sore but not so much painful.  So, what does this have to do with a blog about food?  Well, for me it has everything to do with a blog about food.  Why?  Because I use food to deal with things that I don't know how to otherwise deal with; emotions, fatigue, and...you guessed it, pain.  So, I took what was otherwise a good weekend from a food perspective and when my husband offered to buy dinner Sunday night, I threw paleo and all that it's done for me out the window.  I had fried mushrooms and a veggie stromboli.  And, it was good!  Now, if that's where I stopped, it wouldn't be so bad, but after finagling for what felt like forever to get my kids to sleep, I went for a cupcake and ice cream (thanks to my husband that these things are in the house).  I got up this morning, determined to get things back together and had some sausage and applesauce for breakfast, a nice salad with chicken breast for lunch.  Then comes dinner.  My mom was traveling through so I met her for dinner at Cracker Barrel.  Now, as far as paleo goes, its not the best option, but it's a long way from the worst.  I'm hooked on their grilled chicken tenderloins, but couldn't resist ordering some fried apples and hashbrown casserole.  I rounded the whole thing off with 2 biscuits.  I refuse to beat myself up over this, and I fully intend to "hop back on the wagon" tomorrow morning (actually tonight, no more bad snacks), but what I realized is how easily I could slip back into my old patterns.  I read somewhere that it takes about 3 weeks to form a new habit.  That's as scientific as I'm going to get because I'm not up for researching it right now...so you get an "I read this somewhere, sometime, maybe?".  So, theoretically following my 30 day challenge some of my old habits should be broken.  But for me, my self sabotaging ways are lying in wait.  They might get easier to control, but I'm not sure they will ever go away.  I don't think I will ever be able to not think about what I'm eating.  And, maybe that's ok.  Maybe, some day I can find a way to make it work to my advantage.